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“Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you’re really strangers.” — Mary Tyler Moore
I started off by writing, “it’s painful” because it’s become a course of habit. but i decided to delete it, because it’s not painful. in fact it was almost expected. it wasn’t as though i hadn’t seen something like that before. but i hadn’t expect it to come from him. my theory holds test and true, don’t trust anyone. not even those closest to you. people have a tendency to turn. nothing last forever.
it’s the same old things i’ve been telling myself for years, but at a bit of disbelief that i haven’t been able to really come to terms with it until now. life lessons teach you. make you. love breaks you.
i’m not quite sure on my course of action. i haven’t decided yet. i’m not sure how it makes me feel. all i know is that it has created distance. it sets me apart from him. i feel as though a great wall has formed and i have no real desire to stop it. i know what the burn feels like and i don’t want to participate. i can’t win. it will always be her. given the choice he would never pick me. and even if he did, he would resent me for it. everyday of his life.
sometimes people grow apart. and perhaps that’s what we need too.
